Chapter 3

ACCEPTANCE

Dushanbe One Way

2019

Trespass the boundaries of ordinary thought,

Tear down the stockades of illusion

That you’ve erected to protect yourself

From pain and disappointment at all costs.

The choice was always yours to make, between

The numbing comfort and the pull of roads.

The journey of the mind and soul takes nerve.

So tame, you choose to stay in chains, again.

You run in circles, pace inside your cage. Oh,

What stories you could tell through grinding teeth.

Something is missing. You suddenly stop.

A void, abyss

Inside your chest

Rips open.

Your heart falls in slow motion, coldly

It brushes everything in its descent.

The void grows larger, hungry, greedy,

Spreading like cancer, showing no pity,

Corrupting, numbing all that’s in its way

It trades in your colors for silence.

Then, just allow it to consume you once.

Give up. Give in. Stay still, don’t run

Let in, don’t flinch, take breath.

It’s dark and cold in outer space

But if you float without fear,

Transforms into a sweet embrace.

Bah! This rollercoaster is old news.

The world is crap, but hope still blooms.

Your spine is steel again.


Trust to be Okay in the Universe

The Flow

A4

The Tao

9’’ x 14’’

Inside the Wind

8 cm x 20 cm

Veins of Life

8 cm x 20 cm

Pen, brush, charcoal

A4

Pen, ink

9’’ x 14’’

Tea & pen

8 cm x 20 cm

Seeing the light and creating it

Redmi Note 7, 2020

Light editing by author

Text

“Home Studio”

Oil, acrylic, gold leaf, canvas

Various sizes, 2021-2022

Paragraph about painting what I felt in colors and rhythm, experiments and process-based


Sketches & studies

Breath of being

A4

Acceptance of Shadow

9’’ x 14’’

The Path is infinite and undefinable

8 cm x 20 cm